The Sling Diaries: Delight

This post is part of The Sling Diaries, Vol. II Over the next six months, fifteen bloggers around the world are chronicling their adventures baby-wearing. Welcome to all those who have popped in!  

I want to tell you of my delight when I am wearing Albie. But to tell you how high my heart soars, I have to tell you about some altogether more weighty stuff too.

It’s still hard to tell. How fast my eyes fill, how choked my throat becomes. You see, Albie’s heart stopped in August. He existed on a machine, in a space  between life and death, for four long days and nights.  We just about lost him, and then he came back. That he came back is phenomenal – that he returned with almost no brain damage is nothing short of miraculous. It’s changed us forever.

So delight in this life is kind of all-encompassing right now.  It rushes over us – great tidal waves of gratitude in what we have. I want this feeling to stay with us – I want to remember that carrying my child is a privilege that wasn’t given lightly. But I equally want it to leave us be. Because in the ebb of such a powerful flow is the terrifying knowledge that life is not guaranteed. This sometimes tips my even keel.  And so as high as some posts get on here about this life, on occasion, I have also been getting equally low. How I wish I could write then too, and tell you how much grief got wrapped around this love. Maybe one day I will build the courage.

Thankfully, time is a healer. And as our young family moves further and further away from that winter, the shadows are leaving us too. And there in the sun is Albie. A 20 month old toddler  who has no need to mix with all this gushy sentimentality either. His joy in the world drags me into the present moment, over and over again. Reminds me of the true and real delight to be had, in each and every moment. His joy is contagious and it refuels me.

His shonky heart pressed to mine, we walk together in the sun, and I make a new peace with this world.

This is our delight.

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I wear Albie in a Sakura Bloom Simple Silk sling in Midnight.
Organic cotton Refraction Frock  by Starfish
Huge thanks to our lovely friend Jason for the photography. Check his work out on The Daily F Stop.

10 Comments Add yours

  1. kobayash says:

    You make my heart soar. You are lovely lovely lovely!

  2. Helen says:

    Beautiful boy + beautiful mother = fabulous photos. x

  3. Sharee Lowe says:

    Gorgeous photos Sarah!

  4. Adrienne Hopkins says:

    HI Sarah, Albie is just beautiful, what a cheeky wee smile he has, it just melts your heart. It is wonderful to see him walking and chattering away, obviously a very happy wee man coming along in leaps and bounds now. What a rollercoaster it has been for you all, Think of you a lot,
    Auntie Adie and Uncle David xxx

  5. Inga Boyd says:

    Oh my goodness you have me wiping tears away at work.. again!!! You write so beautifully Sarah, you look so stunning and you’re so right – Albie brings so much joy just with his cheeky smile and curious sparkly eyes. Thank you so much for sharing – you guys are a total delight!!! xxxxxxxx

  6. jameskilbride says:

    Just gorgeous. Xxxxx

  7. Peta Hislop says:

    Wonderful Sarah, you should write a book some day! Seriously! xxx

  8. Helene says:

    Sarah what amazingly beautiful photos and words. I especially love the first photo which is the epitome of joy and love.

  9. Syleena says:

    Beautiful, beautiful beautiful. Im so thrilled you are doing The Sling Diaries…you are both just gorgeous xxxx

  10. so beautifully written x

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